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Tuesday, August 02, 2005 

Tired of the Headaches, Tired of the Crap, and most of all, tired of worrying...

I've been worrying so bad lately about job situations, time, school, living situation, etc.
And I'm sick of it.

And it took a very dear to my heart co-worker to slap me in the face with the frozen tuna of reality for me to see the very honest truth. "It doesn't matter." And you know what, after munching on it for a few minutes, she's right.

I've been worried about my job. Well, jobs are temporary. And at least I have one. When you start worrying about it no longer being there, you manage to sap all your joy away. Managers change, positions are added and subtracted. People are hired, replaced, and let go. That's just how the world turns. Why let it suck all your happiness away? God gave me this job when I needed it to be able to get married and provide for my wife. And when the time comes that God is ready to move me to the next stage in my life, he'll provide opportunities there, too. Besides, when I dream of what I'm supposed to do with my life, I never see myself chained to a cubicle and a computer. So why then do I feel the compulsion to push myself further into the business world?

I have no doubt in my mind that God has a definate plan for me. All I have to do is look into the eyes of my beautiful wife, the most wonderful compainion I could ever ask for, to see and know that his course for me is full of wonders I can't even imagine. So, why do I fear that if I don't drive myself crazy with worry, I'm not doing something right? It's kindof like smothering yourself to death with a pillow when you have to power to lift your head up at any time. But instead, you fight and fight because you think the only way to get to air is to force yourself all the way through the pillow, which just serves to smother you more.

My job situation will improve. School will be great, and all of AJ and I's needs will be met.
And that makes me happy :)

I love the pillow analogy. As one who is notorious for worrying, I'm glad you're getting free from that. In my heart I know that worry shows a complete lack of trust in God, yet I slip back into it so easily. God Bless. Mom G

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